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what’s the point?

I’m having another crisis as a wave of doubt about approaching my future endeavours consumes me. I need to continue to narrow my focus when it come to thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life.

Here’s the rub. I have doubts about my ability to do certain things, specifically writing about certain subjects and topics. I have dipped my toe into several different subjects, and for a while, I became quite good at some of it. Writing about motor racing is a prime example. I became good at it, mostly because I allowed myself to become completely immersed in it. But I always felt like an imposter, an interloper who didn’t have a right to b there among some of the best journalists and writers in the world. That held me back and caused me to make mistakes.

Recently I’ve been coming up with all kinds of ideas for blogs and websites. I’ve even gone as far as creating newsletters and social media accounts for them. What the fuck am I doing, and what is the point? I’ve spent some time pondering these questions and have concluded that I have to look at those things in life that bring me the greatest joy. So I did that. It’s quite a shortlist; here it is.

  • I ENJOY BEING WITH FRIENDS & FAMILY
  • I LIKE TO TRAVEL
  • I ENJOY BEING OUT IN NATURE
  • I LIKE TO WRITE
  • I LIKE TO READ
  • I ENJOY PHOTOGRAPHY

Over the next few days and weeks, I will decide how to move forward using this list as a guide. The first thing will be ‘trimming the fat’ by closing down the things that are a huge time suck. By paring down and pulling my fingers out of the pies of distraction, I will gradually start to get back to the things that really matter to me.